memory at KMPk

yg mengingatkan aku semula psa KMPk ni
sbb aku sembg ngan mak aku psal duit..
cerita nye berbunyi begini

adalah satu hari ni
dlm kelas agama dengn Ustaz Amiruddin

ustaz : kmu thu x..duit elaun yg kmu dpt adalah amanah rakyat tuk kmu..oleh itu sy kte haram jika kmu menggunakan duit tersebut kearah yang tidak berfaedah atau yang bukan berkaitan pelajaran..

then the next kelas
after dpt result sem 1 n keputusan 2nd intake
utk upu kos diploma
ade sorg hamba allah nih blah sbb dpt uitm
n xdpt nak teruskan di matrik
oleh itu;

ustaz : klu sy la jd die sy akan stay kat cni dlu
sumone : knape plak ustaz...bkn nak wat pape pun kat cni..dah xdek smgat nak balaja dah
ustaz : bkn apa..die xperlu lah pegi kelas dan sebgainya
sumone : then nak wat pe ustaz duk cni...sakit hati usztaz pasrah pun ye ustaz..
ustaz : bkn nye pegi kelas tp tggu elaun matrix dpt
(semua tercengang n ade yg gelak)
sumone : loh..ustaz ckp juge hram klu kte gune duit tuh tuk benda selain pelajaran (dengan muke bangga!)
ustaz : mmg la sy ckp macam tu..tp spe yg nak bagi rm1250 dkat awak??? sbgai persediaan tuk msuk u ok la tu! mak bapak awak bleh ke tggung?? awak mnx ptptn jgak kan?..tp 1 month kat u dah bleh dpt ptptn ke??..xkan..kene tggu jgak tu pun enth confirm dpt ke x pun kte xtau..
sumone : btul tuh ustaz..tp nnt kene byar blik duit tuh..rm2500 tuh ustaz..kte nak blaja then nak byr jgak...
ustaz : tguh la dlu..byar bile kmu dah keje..ada faham??..(dengan mke tersengih)

p/s : huhu..xdek la klakar mne pun cte nih tp just terigt pesanan ustaz..ade btul jgak kte ustaz
selagi kte ade peluang kte gunakanlah sebaik2 nye..

Grey Sky Morning - Pancaroba

Malam masih muda

Ikutkan rentaknya
Menari cha cha cha
Hilangkan duka lara
Masa bergembira
Hiburkanlah hati yang luka

Papa asal bergaya
Lupakan sengketa
Hidup mesti gembira
Jangan rosakkan jiwa
Usahlah kau lupa
Masa depan disana bahagia

Hidup ini penuh erti
Buat kita berdua
Lupakanlah segala – gala sengketa
Janganlah dikenang kita bangkit semula
Agar kau dan aku hidup dengan bahagia
Inilah kehidupan. pancaroba.

Baik berpada pada
Jahat jangan sekali
Masih ada yang nanti
Untuk jadi pengganti
Mari kita berlari
Berlari ke destinasi yang baru

am i 19??

ok look..
semua benda yang nak kte wat mst ada plan..
plan A or B and etc..

so my plan is..
I WANT GO OUT CATCH UP SOME MOVIES OUT THERE!!
AND HANG OUT WITH MY FRIENDS!! wohooo!!
and kadang2 sume plan xmnjdi sbb ade halangan
SO DO I!!
when it comes like that
MAKE ME HATE TO PLAN!!
but smetime halangan tuh xdek sbnarnye
tp dr sndri n masalah dalaman yg mnjdi halangan
SO I REALLY CONFUSED RITE NOW!
COULD U IMAGINE WHAT I THINKING RITE NOW??..
shit! hate to be like that ^ acc

and sometime masalah dalaman nih influence dr org luar
means mcm PARENTS! or not in MOOD???..
BUT FOR ME THE OBSTACLE IS MY PARENTS!
CAN I JUST DO WHATEVER I WANT WITHOUT ANY REASONS??
or just let me do whatever i want
B'COUSE AM 19 LA!!
AM GROWING UP..
I NOE WHICH ONE IS BAD OR GOOD FOR ME
EITHER TO THEM ALSO??
AND YOU SHOULD TRUST ME!

but sometime all those thing ^ there are not
the big mess acc
but FOR ME IT IS!
B'COS THEY DOESN'T TRUST ME..
and ^ make me thinking
AM I GROW UP??...
and
AM I 19??

(p/s : of cos not! am 18 lg la..huh?? confused!)

flash back..

even kte dah ade kat mne kte skrang nih still lagi perasaan x puas hati tu ada...
why ea??...
in my mind got two bisikan yg always remind me the memory or the gambaran of future..

in 1st case :
i blame my parents sbb i xdpt achieve what i want which is i nak go through on matriculation but not in medical field..
but then i hv to sacrifice my dream accuatally
follow their advice sbb they think it is the best for me
their reasons to me to stop matriculation is in future u mmg ssh nak dpt ur dream job cos yelah in future who know rite?
and my father said that yang die dah bersara so not enough money nak carry me out till uni
lgpun bawah i got many sister n brother to go..
so mean i willing go through to medical field bcos of my siblings yg still schooling lg
so nak jadi kan cerita
a couples week ago i recieve call from USM
they ask me psal result matrix but then i told yg i half way only
then i tnye la blk why call me??...
then he said that they just only want to remind about fasa 2 of UPU
and then they also told yg based on my result for the 1st sem
I LAYAK MSUK USM
so..what u think??...
if i x pegi study kat KTMP i myb dah prepare pg USM amik chemical engineering
i dah ade degree..yg pentg i dpt what i dream..
but it totally wrong..
its vice versa..

the 2nd case :
i forgot all about chemical n myb just go on with medical lab
the result is okay but
my father, he never puas apa yg telah i dpt
everything!!
dari atas hingga ke bawah...
dari dalam hingga ke luar..
he never!
and that was made me very kecewa n sedih sgt2
i dah buat yang terbaik
and i think i patut dpt satu pujian..
so i just forget it because he is my father
x dek guna klu dok bertekak je kan..
so just let it go..
myb ade hikmah

3rd case :
i rse i dah buat yang terbaik dlm hidup i
i ikut ckp my parents
yeah! just follow
they want me to do this
i do..
they want i go anywhre
i go..
but then i think i already 19
so i can do whatever i want
n i can go wherever i want
but i still TERKONGKONG
i got my own money means my own salary
so it's up to me nak buat apa with MY MONEY
i bought a NIKON D3000
for me!..

p/s : myb i dah penat ngan semua nih..so the solution is i just follw them bcos they are my parents..